Lip pierced.

I dunno why, but after i pierced my lips i didnt feel as happy and excited as i thought i would had. I cant eat things properly for a start, and then all the stares and diao-ings make me feel very uncomfortable. Worst of all is the big deal at home, my mum is seriously sensitive about this, and after a few arguements she just refused to talk to me or even look at me.

she told me "dun blame me for not loving u anymore." it seriously breaks my heart. Like a knife stab into my heart. I went to sleep as early as 9.30pm that night, and i woke up at 12.30am, i cant sleep anymore. I was just thinking and thinking and thinking about wat my mum said. I can feel tears starting to fall. I cant rmb when was the last time i cried. I thot i forgotten how to. I thot i am so hardened dat i wont cry anymore. i dare say it really take alot alot for me to cry. Even after wat happen to my father, i didnt rmb really crying about it at all. The mum that i care most about cant accept me. if she really want to give u on me and dun care about me anymore cos of this, i am sorry. I dont think i can do anything about it. but i hope she wont blame me if i really turn bad.