Fuck. I think i haven recover from the saturday incident at all. I am such a bad girl seriously. How can i treat my mum like that?? But i cant control myself.. I can t face her properly. I cant speak to her properly. The tone just isnt right. I cant have a proper conversation with her anymore. My heart tell me to turn away when i am facing her. I know she is feeling sad with me also. I know she hope that i would talk to her nicely. I know she needs my support. I feeling very bad when i dun talk to her, I tried to. I tried my best. But i cant. MY heart will tell me, "hey she dun care abt u anymore, since thats the case, dun bother."

Wat the fuck is happening to me? Someone tell me. I am so useless.